Thanks to the Warsaw Artistic Grant, I have been working for the whole year 2024 on the project:

Not Existing (Can’t do / Won’t do – Giving to You) and It Is.
[orig. Nie ma (nie daję ready / nie robię – daję tobie) i jest]

This project is part of my long-term artistic research on failures, unfulfillments, and exclusions in art. It was a year-long experimental artistic process devoted to theatre (or, more broadly, to art) that wasn’t and isn’t, which no one could see/experience, project failures, resignations, rejections, and exclusions; individual research and performative work on the topic of unrealised works by people who „couldn’t manage”/didn’t have the opportunity to realise them.

As part of the Grant, I conducted interviews and research and worked individually on the idea of conceptual, imagined performative events. In October, November, and December, I carried out three performative workshop events Centrum Sztuki Włączającej / Teatr 21, parts of which were recorded. You can now listen to an audio reflection made from these recordings on SoundCloud.

I want to give special thanks to all the people who agreed to talk to me, who helped me access herstory, queerstory, and cripstory materials, and all the workshop participants. Without you, this journey would not have been possible.